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Haix...block leave going to end soon. Time flies! =(
I feel so troubled!!! Only u can help me. Every now and then i keep thinking of u. Why do i feel that u dont really care about me anymore? I am always the one starting the conversation. Does it mean that if i dont message u first, u wont message me at all. I feel so distant from u. In the past, u will sms whenever u like and bug me. But now, everytime i hear my phone ring, i am always hoping that your name will appear on the screen and somehow it never happen =(
I know I am a guy and I should be the one taking all the initiatives. But i have tried. Guess i am deemed to be a failure in relationship =(
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CBRE!!! I have been posted to the unit that i want. No field camp, max of 4km route march, near to my house and extra 200 bucks of risk allowance. Shiok~ The only bad thing about is mobbing up and down with the irritating gas mask. Lolz~ Another 12 wks of training and I will be a 3SG.
Picture of you - Boyzone
Didn't they say that I would make a mistake
Didn't they say you were gonna be trouble
People told me you were too much to take
I couldn't see it, I didn't want to know
I let you in, and you let me down
You messed me up and you turned my life around
Left me feeling I had nowhere to go
I was alone how was I to know that
You would be there when I needed somebody
You would be there the only one could help
I had a picture of you in my mind
Never knew it could be so wrong
Why'd it take me so long just to find
The friend that was there all along
Who'd believe that after all we've been through
I'd be able to put my trust in you
Goes to show you can forgive and forget
Looking back I have no regrets cos
You would be there when I needed somebody
You would be there the only one could help me
I had a picture of you in my mind
Never knew it could be so wrong
Why'd it take me so long just to find
The friend that was there all along
You would be there when I needed somebody
You would be there the only one could help me
I had a picture of you in my mind
Never knew it could be so wrong
Why'd it take me so long just to find
The friend that was there all along
Had a picture of you in my mind
Never knew it could be so wrong
Why'd it take me so long just to find
The friend that was there all along
Had a picture of you in my mind, all along
Never knew it could be so wrong, all along
Why'd it take me so long just to find
A pity that u have exams next week if not I can meet up with u and clarify matters...
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I have made the decision. To do things in a roundabout way and let u know about the existence of this blog. My heart really yearn for u. Everytime i look at the pics in your facebook, my heart aches. So close yet so far. Haix...
I shall leave the tossing of coin to fate!
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4 more days to POP!! Hopefully i can get into cbre and get the extra 200 bucks risk allowance. I am praying hard not to get into aslc. I seriously will just down-pes and get my corporal rank. Lolz~
Went out with my jc classmates for lunch and kbox session today. Had my fun. And I managed to engage a conversation with pat on our way home. Our first since 2.5 years ago. Now, I can tell myself confidently that I really have no feeling towards her anymore. We are just friends... I want to tell u that I do think of you every now and then. Yet, I am losing confidence not only in myself, as well as you. I dont know how to describe my feeling. Total loss of words. Haix~
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Weird feeling, yet again...This song describes my feeling towards u!
张韶涵-其实很爱你
离开不会太悲伤
有些心情该释放
直到眼泪它自己落下
才发现骗不了自己
其实很爱你
现在学着去遗忘
躲开有你的地方
回忆被谁放在书架上
把他从最高的地方落下
感动越是深刻
寂寞就越伤人喔
每个人的心里都
会有一段伤痕
像白纸的天真
仿佛被你伤得好深
相爱不需要理由
离开也没有理由挽留