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I dont know how u feel when u see 'my heart is as dead as this blog' on the other blog. Should i even let u know the existence of this blog? Nah, maybe i should not. I should keep everything to myself. I dont understand myself. Before i met u, i told myself to ignore u and try to keep a distance away from u. But whenever u appear in front of me, all the previous thinkings disappear into thin air immediately. Gosh~why am i so hesitant? I try to let u go but...
11 days towards my enlistment... time really flies. I still can remember the wonderful times we had study together during A level, going out together and even going work together. I dont know whether your liking towards me has increased for this 2 months. But i guess not...at least that's e answer i gather from your blog. Oh well, maybe life in NS will make me forget about u. I really dont understand myself. Why do i have to keep reading your blog, knowing that it will upset me? I must be crazy!
I have been thinking hard...if i really dont contact u, will u contact me? Would i be sad if u really dont talk to me anymore? Maybe i need time. Like what happen to me and pat. It took me 2 years to completely let go of the past. 单恋真的好痛苦...我真的不想再承受了! But i think this time i will need more time.