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Thursday, April 30, 2009 / 8:40 PM
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Came back from tekong this morning. I am super shagged. Slept the whole afternoon. Army life is quite tough but i think i am still able to cope with it. Yesterday's live firing was fun. I still dont know what's my score but I am hoping to get marksmanship. Food in school really sucks but i still eat loads. I only got silver for my CAT(IPPT warmup) test. I still have to improve my 2.4 timing by 30s. 9.44min is kinda crazy. Field camp on this sun. Sianz...



Though i miss u, i will stick to my principle.

Sunday, April 12, 2009 / 10:59 PM
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Went out with the 02 guys today. Had lunch buffet at suntec then pool at marina. Enjoyed myself...As usual, i get to hear lots of NS stories. Lolz~ I am going in tomorrow. I will get to experience everything!

Saturday, April 11, 2009 / 3:39 PM
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Went to play street soccer this morning with my aj friends. Super hot and tiring but still, i enjoyed myself. I did not play that well. Made some mistakes playing as the defender. I always love to charge forward and bombard the opposition goal with long range shot. But i hate my soccer shoes which is kinda soft for shooting. Seems like it's time to buy a new pair. Hahaz...

2 more days to NS life. Had a good time chatting with those guys just now. Learned a lot of new things regarding to NS life. I think i am not going to look forward towards the field camp. It sounds terrible. Lolz~

Friday, April 10, 2009 / 10:50 AM
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人往往做一些自己不喜欢做的事情, 但因为在恶劣的环境下而身不由己...

/ 12:28 AM
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Went for my interview today. Kind of screwed... Imagine the professor tells u this: I find u a pleasant guy but u make me feel that u are lacking of confidence because u keep avoiding eye contact. Shucks...i am still having this old ailment: eye-contact! That was something i try very hard to overcome during pw. Hmm...seems like i need to spend more time on my eyes.

In 3.5 days time, i will be on my way to tekong, experiencing a new life. Well, i can say that i am looking forward to it. Wonder how NS life will affect me?

I have been having insomnia lately. I just cant get my damn brain to switch off. i think for the past 4 days, i only sleep like less than 25 hours. Sianz... something is really really wrong with me. Am i feeling too nervous? Or is it something weighing in my mind? I dont know...i really dont know!!!

Monday, April 6, 2009 / 2:00 AM
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Gosh~it's 2am in the morning and i doubt i can fall asleep easily again. Last night it took me 2 plus hours to fall asleep. And the reason was i had been thinking and thinking. I have been wondering if i have made the correct decision. I have been thinking everything about the past. I have finally deleted all your pics and messages that i kept in my phone. It's time to let everything go and prepare to face fresh challenges ahead. I dont want to let go but i am left with no choice. And now, i dont know how to face u. For some ridiculous reason which i also dont know, i lose my temper whenever u try to talk to me. I will purposely avoid u by saying that i am going to sleep. I am sorry!!!

I hope u will do well in your studies and enjoy your future career as an OT. Dont have to worry about me. Dont miss me... U still have your other friends to guide u along. Hopefully u will find someone that u truly love soon!

As for this blog, it will always remain unknown to u...i will always keep it within the deepest of my heart!

Friday, April 3, 2009 / 12:37 AM
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I dont know how u feel when u see 'my heart is as dead as this blog' on the other blog. Should i even let u know the existence of this blog? Nah, maybe i should not. I should keep everything to myself. I dont understand myself. Before i met u, i told myself to ignore u and try to keep a distance away from u. But whenever u appear in front of me, all the previous thinkings disappear into thin air immediately. Gosh~why am i so hesitant? I try to let u go but...

11 days towards my enlistment... time really flies. I still can remember the wonderful times we had study together during A level, going out together and even going work together. I dont know whether your liking towards me has increased for this 2 months. But i guess not...at least that's e answer i gather from your blog. Oh well, maybe life in NS will make me forget about u. I really dont understand myself. Why do i have to keep reading your blog, knowing that it will upset me? I must be crazy!

I have been thinking hard...if i really dont contact u, will u contact me? Would i be sad if u really dont talk to me anymore? Maybe i need time. Like what happen to me and pat. It took me 2 years to completely let go of the past. 单恋真的好痛苦...我真的不想再承受了! But i think this time i will need more time.