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Should i fight for my own happiness?
Or should i leave it to fate to decide for me?
I have been watching tv for like more than 7 hours every day since i stopped working. Every time i see a couple who are not destined to be together, i feel sad for them. I understand how they feel. That pain is so unbearable... but somehow, all the couples will have an happy ending. Will that happen to me too? Well, i cant predict the future.
I have been telling myself that it will be my last time seeing u tomorrow. I thought we wont be seeing each other anymore. I realised that other than work, we have nothing to say to each other anymore. Or rather it may be me alone that feels that way. I really have nothing to say to u apart from work. If not for work, i would not have smsed u. Helping u to get your scholarship would be the very last thing i can do for u. When u told me that u got the scholarship, i should be feeling happy for u. But i am not... Why??? I am not trying to avoid u but rather i am running away from my problem. I am too afraid to face it. How i wish i can ask u whether u are ready. But i know what your answer would be...