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i have been thinking and thinking. Whenever i am alone, i will start to ponder...
Would it be better if i did not fall in love with you?
Would our relationship be better as very very good friends instead of the current situation?
Am i regretting falling in love with you?
Or am i deemed to be a failure in relationship right from the start?
Yesterday u make me feel that we are very very close but today i feel that we are like strangers... what's happening? I remembered how close we were when we read the newspaper together. Yet, i also remembered how u just refuse to tell me your happenings. I was only trying to be concerned but i end up feeling like a nuisance instead. Just now when i walked out of mediacorp, I happened to see u boarding bus 52. I was feeling kinda glad that vanessa asked me some questions, the lift did not come immediately, the damned electric door refused to budge... I really dont know!!! Am i glad that i dont have to face u on the bus? I really dont know what to do. Sometimes i make up my mind to avoid u and yet when u come up to me, how can i possibly do so? I feel so miserable! I feel like just running away from u...how i wish that i had not asked u to work with me! Now, i have to face u and try to give a smile in front of u. This is so tiring...