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Wednesday, February 25, 2009 / 11:56 PM
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Today is one of the unhappiest days in my life. I apparently screwed up everything...like the household chores that my mum asked me to do. And we ended up quarrelling. Furthermore, i read some stuff that maybe i should not have read in the first place. It makes me saddening... I went to NTUC before working to buy some liquor. I saw u on the bus but i was in no mood to see or talk to anyone so i avoided u. Saw the rainbow in the sky but it did not cheer me up at all. I have a feeling that u saw me boarding the bus knowing that i am avoiding u. I went office red-faced. I felt like sleeping during work. And i have a splitting headache now. I finally understand why people seek to alcohol when they are upset. It really make u forget the pain temporarily. Still, i know my limit as i am one who take care of my health meticulously.

I am really very confused. Intuition tells me to give up. Maybe i should try to let go. I am sure i will not be as hurt as u. Anyway this is not my first time...so u don't have to worry about me. i wish i can help u to reduce your suffering but i am not him.