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I killed my blog because it's impossible for me to post any happy post at the moment. This secret blog is my personal diary. I wished that i could be like you and post entries as freely as u like. But i am not like you. I am not prepared to share stuff with u. I still have the mentality of keeping certain things to myself. All my troubles to myself...SORRY! There's alot of things that i know and question but i choose to keep mum. Are u trying to share the stuff with me or just blogging randomly?
I am starting to see the differences between us but i still feel that as long as my heart stays towards u, we still can end up together. And since i know you quite well, i bet u will start doubting this relationship which has yet to start. U will start questioning yourself whether is this guy really your destined one. I know no matter what i say or what i do, i cant give u any assurance. I can only pray that one day, i will be able to move u.
Sometimes I have this question to myself...am i being too concerned over you? So at times, i choose to ignore u in hope u will do something. Take for instance today, when u ask me to accompany u, i choose to stay at home. Will u take me for granted if i shower u with excessive care. Well, i really dont know but i hope not. So far, i have been disappointed. I know that u dont have any feelings towards me yet. But since i choose to not give up, i will persist. Hopefully u can feel my sincerity. My heart do ache when u always mention him but i have no complaint or grumble. I understand...
I am really afraid to make stupid mistakes like what happened to me and pat. I dont want to live in regret again. To be frank, i am afraid to be hurt once again. I know the pain is not as much as u are enduring currently. I want to help u but u are retailiating every move i made. One wrong move and that's game over for me. Gosh~ I am so confused...will fate really let me be with u???
ARGGGHHH...I feel like going to the beach and start to yell like crazy